3rd Day of Recovery
CLOSURE – A feeling of finality or resolution, especially after a traumatic experience. It is still a foreign word to me. They say this is closure. He has been found. What more do I want? But I have to...
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Purging. You know how some families, they just accumulate stuff when they cope with trauma and loss? Our family is different, we purge – throw things and clean. My house was getting back in order...
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We had started working on the preparations for the funeral service the day before just in case it was him. I was numb with pain but I have to do the 1001 task that needs to be done. The FBI SACs met...
View Article6th -10th Day of Recovery
A blur. A flurry of activities. Lots of warm condolences. Lots of tears. Heartbreak. Confusion. Anger. Acceptance? I don’t know. Paralysis. Messages that I couldn’t answer. Questions that no one could...
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It wasn’t a good day. I had an emotional breakdown. With all the list of things to do, I just felt that I wanted to get away from all this “madness.” I felt like a bride who just wanted to elope with...
View ArticleOur 8th Wedding Anniversary
Steve and I were supposed to celebrate our 8th Wedding Anniversary today. I think I’m beginning to sound like a broken record by saying that I miss him so much. I never knew that the night we were...
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Last Saturday, the little munchkin & I visited Steve’s grave. It always has been an emotional experience for me going there. Why should he be six feet under when he should be here with us? So many...
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1st Day of Recovery
I sent an email to Detective Gordon requesting a police report because I’d been planning to reach out to C.U.E.(Community United Effort) Center for Missing Person in assisting me in my search to find...
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2nd Day of Recovery
My heart was shattered into pieces. My whole being was screaming “NO! It’s not Steve!” It was the new norm for me: getting ready for work, bringing the little munchkin to Nursery, attending the morning...
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